Friday, December 26, 2008

It's been awhile

Hey everyone!

My apologies for taking so long to post again, I will try to do better now that I am DONE SCHOOL!!!

There have been a lot of changes in my life lately... I graduated with my Masters in counseling, and am currently seeking employment and supervision so that I can get licensed in the not to distant future. I am still alone, and still no if anyone knows any motivated single men...send em my way, lol. Many of my friends have gotten married, suffered losses that I can't even begin to relate to, and had children. I had the opportunity to see the movie fireproof, and it moved me...even as a single woman, it was thought provoking and worthwhile.

Last April I suffered a small stroke that completely turned my world upside down. It confirmed to me that there are some people that just can't handle being friends with someone who is sick...and there are others who would take a bullet for me, and support me no matter how tough the times are, without any alterior motives.

Someone whom I considered to be a very dear friend completely stopped talking to me after this incident, but handled it for two years prior. It killed me for so long, and then when she accused me of trying to make her feel guilty for cutting off contact, the knife was not only in me, but was twisted. For about a week recently I was really upset because I felt (and some days still do) that I had/have been forgotten by someone whom I, unfortunately will never forget. But through lots of prayer, listening to loss of friendship songs, and just allowing myself to be upset, I have been feeling better about the situation.

I have strengthened my relationship with one of my best friends, and I feel more like she is a sister. I don't know what I would do without her. God has blessed me with amazing friends who understand and rejoice with me in my strengths, support me through my weaknesses, and encourage me in my future.

I hate not being around my "sister" Sarah anymore since I moved back in with my parents in Cleveland. But we talk so much more now, and honestly...I doubt our parents could have handled us as sisters. Sarah and Caitlin, I love you both and could not live without your friendship. And Beck, I love you too!... Being so far away has pulled us apart somewhat... but I miss you and can't wait to be the maid of honor in your wedding.

I came across a wall hanging that spoke to me... it said "There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there is a reason why they didn't make it into your future."

The verse Peter 5:10 was also helpful in the healing process. Everyone has a story.

So, that is all for now, I believe.

1 comment:

A Lui said...

Official Congrats on your Masters! Knowing I wasn't near to be there... would have been great if timing was with me at that time but unfortunately I had to do my duty our nation put me in. I do hope the future holds for me to have a second chance to be the type of person you can rely on. On to your next blog :)