Saturday, August 18, 2012

While I'm Waiting

And another one bites the dust, so to speak. Perhaps I should quit loving with my whole heart, that way when it ends it might not hurt as much. Fortunately, for anyone who knows me, also knows that this is a preposterous concept for me. Everything I do, I do with my whole heart; that will never change... Even if I do have a greater chance of being hurt again.

With this loss comes a desire in me to find a love greater than all the ones before. An even greater desire is that God leads that man to me and opens my eyes and heart when the time is right.  That he reveals the love he has for me. Please pray that prayer with me.

A few things I've been doing to help prepare myself... Joining the church I've been attending, considering joining the choir. I've also been reading the five love languages for singles at the recommendation of a friend. I've also written out meaningful songs, phrases, and verses to encourage me in my healing and walk toward the future. In the coming weeks I will share some of the songs, verses, sayings, etc.

While I'm waiting by john Waller is the most meaningful to me. Below is what I plan on doing (two verses from the song)

"I'm waiting, I'm waiting on you Lord. And I am hopeful, I'm waiting on you, Lord. Though it is painful, but patiently I will wait."

"I will serve you while I'm waiting, I will worship while I'm waiting"

Until next time

1 comment:

Sarah said...

First off- glad to see you back in the blog world, posting again. Welcome back!

You have had a hell of a time, and I am so sorry for that. I admire your strength and positivity, in the face of all of this.

You are right. You will find a love so much greater and stronger, and a man who is truly right for you (which includes lack of being a weenie).

I'm glad you are doing these things, focusing on working on yourself and your spiritual side.