Thursday, February 11, 2010


Some events being experienced by people in my life have reminded me just how temporary this life is; and how precious every moment we have should be. And yet, I still find myself milling over things that in the long run... don't really matter. Well, to me they matter but shouldn't be as big of a deal as they feel like.
I'm not losing someone, I didn't just experience a loss, I'm just confused. Torn. Questioning my motives, my future, my past, and my present. I'm restraining myself from letting myself get too attached to anyone emotionally in the hopes of something that probably isn't there anymore. But in the end, does it really matter? I should "unapologize". Maybe then I wouldn't be so darn confused. Carrie Underwood's latest album "play" has so many songs that embody how I am feeling right now. I wish I wasn't so afraid. Good grief... Sarah, you can't get here soon enough

1 comment:

Sarah said...

Searching for some words of wisdom for you... but not sure I have any! What is there to say that won't further confuse and complicate things? I seem to be good at picking out all possible outcomes, good or bad... a devil's advocate of sorts.
So yeah..enough about me. I just hope that you don't get lost in trying to anaylze and understand everything right now. Try to have faith that all this confusion and pain and learning will lead you to greater things.
(not that I'm one to

I can't wait to see you either! It'll be so good.